Away Gone [personal] concerns / venting

(If you don't know what Away Gone is, its my main comic that I've been working on (mainly the script) for about 3-5 years now and has been on hiatus for a few months cuz of stuff... I mean right now the characters look like shit because I was really bad back then, but i've done more practice on humans so I think I have improved enough to gain more confidence. :'D )

So i've been thinking about continuing it for the past week, but i've also been afraid of possibly making a mistake on a page or something. :/ Also kingsnackcrackers wont stOP CHANGING UP LANE AND (mostly) LILAC! :'D And the next page is supposed to have a panel of one of the two (Sshhhh!) in the background.... And sorry Sky, but if you change them (mostly Lilac's eyes) then I will probably not have her like that in my comic. XD There are "certain scenes" (you know what im talking about) that I want to have that I think are better as is so I really don't want to change that..... unless you have better ideas then im all ears. o3o 

ANYWAY, I also worry that my script isn't organized enough so I might forget what parts go where for each page that I start. And you know how each page of a comic usually has a "cliff hanger" kind of scene to it? Im worried that you guys (if you're even still interested which im sure you're not) might lose interest and give up on it because its not interesting enough or whatever. I may have a friend from another site help me with that though so maybe he can be part of the little AG team(?), I just don't know though... Im not very good at this. Im a very shy person when it comes to showing stuff, but thats why I made my own DA account to fix that and get help if I needed it! But I mean like with my project, I feel like if I am calling everyone who is really taking part of my comic "a team" then that would make me a leader since its mostly my project, and I am NOT a very good leader! D: I really do want help with this though... I hate the thought of failure, and I hate the thought of letting my Watchers down by putting up a shitty comic (I mean one that is not supposed to be shitty) and them just not liking it enough to continue reading it. :/ 

I also have up to 4 or 5 chapters planned out on the script, but should I wait on the drawing part and continue planning in case I think of more little "hints" or funny little easter eggs or jokes to add? Or should I use what I have so far and add to the script as I go on and risk it? Im really stuck here... I haven't taken any real class on how to tell stories like in comics before. Like, the only thing related was a two week comic class in an art camp for the summer when I was about 7th grade! The only thing I remember from it was that there had to be items or maybe people facing the way that leads the readers eye to the next panel.... Also the teacher named Cory (I think) who had a large mark that took nearly half his face which reminded me of Zuko from Avatar. I liked him a lot for that and him being nice and inspiring.  

Also I am not sure how to explain how the AG world works compared to ours. Like the places/settings/biomes etc. are put differently them ours. Like most of it is supposed to be desert between all the main areas like cities, towns, and areas where the creatures live, and whatever's not desert is all ice and snowy mountains n' such, yet there will also be some states/countries that are the same as here on Earth. How do I explain stuff like that? Like, everyone in the freaking world would know so its not like anyone will explain how everything works! DX 

I really want to make this happen. I want to show off my skills if I have any and maybe inspire people or make them look forward to tomorrow (or the next week)! I want to feel like I will be remembered for something good. I want to add creativity and joy to to this art side of the internet. I know you'll probably say something like "we love whatever you do" but I really don't feel like others will mean it. Hell, the main reason I am going to college is because I want to learn more and improve my work so I can maybe have a CHANCE to not end up in the streets and be able to make people happy in some way! I don't care about getting rich, if I did then I wouldn't be going in this direction. I just like to see other's smile or read how I have changed someone's life (which happened once with an internet friend of mine who has now gone off to do better things and have better friends...). You now how when you finally see the next page of your favorite comic you get this excited feeling like you want to know what happens next (like with Homestuck for example before it ended)? I want others to feel like that about my comic or whatever stories I make in the future. I want to be remembered... 


So just to sum this up; I want to continue my comic but I am a failure, I also want to feel like I am actually happy with myself. :'D